Mad Rush

just 2 days to go... and things are really heating up. Everyone is hounding us.. well, not as though they didn't hound us initially. Lots of rubbish too coming from that company that starts with the letter S. They really seem to have not much to do, keep calling and mailing us to ask about silly things.

And I've still got so much to do, so much to settle as well... but I still got to go out of office to get some materials tomorrow. Troublesome... is too much of an understatement.

Its a good thing baddie gave me an extension for my sch work.. otherwise I'll be dead. Even though the extension isn't that long... don't dare to ask for too much time. Which means after the end of the event, I will have to get up the next day and start typing, and draining whatever juices I will have left in my brain.

Maybe then.. redbull would be really useful. Especially after 3 full days of a crazy show. And the months of mad preparation, and this final week of appeasing everyone (of our business and also not of our business)

What's good is, after all this, these people will get off my back! =P
I will have time to go for proper lunch breaks again. Time to joke around at work, without everybody at the office sighing and making funny noises out of stress.

Now, I just hope the 3 days go well, without major hiccups... *cross fingers*

I got to survive

This is a frantic week for me.

Loaded with too many things I have to do, and worse, in 2 areas of my life. So much so that I gotta put jamming away from my mind for this week, till I get past it.

Whatever it is, I gotta run a good show (for all 3 days) and I gotta complete my thesis (no matter how bad it is). Not sure how I am going to achieve this but I'm already falling asleep everyday in front of my computer trying to pull these 2 things off.

But self-pity is not much use, so I'm just gonna try anyway.

I'm now just looking forward to next week, where hopefully I can get more time off (I have to!).. to just finish up the thesis. And then go back to jamming again as well :P

Will try to blog about the events of last weekend when I have the time ;)

To the gals...

Decided to blog again after reading An's blog.

I agree too, there's nothing I look forward more than our weekly jamming sessions. And 2-3 hours always never seems to be enough. Ideally, we could have our own studio an just jam for 24 hours.. haha, but we will forever be poor, so that will be quite a far fetched dream for now.

It was quite disappointing in the beginning, when we couldn't really get things going.. having problems arranging our jam sessions, couldn't get our sound right and everything sounding so loose, then later losing our guitarist.

But I didn't want to give up... not after it has taken me so long to finally get a band together. And as I always wanted.. a true all girl band. Maybe I'm a feminist, but I want to really prove to the guys that being a good musician is not determined by gender, especially when it comes to bands.
Why should band competitions have a special category for all girl bands? Consolation prize? Which was why we stuck with wanting to find a new female guitarist, or just stick by having only 4 of us.

Along came Deb, and then our opportunity to perform. And very quickly followed by another one coming up tomorrow as well.

Its not just me being egoistic but I really believe we can go further than just have fun jamming in a studio.

Hearing ourselves play now, I can really say that we have improved tremendously after just 2 mths or so of playing together. Lets continue to believe and work hard together. We will own the stage some day :)

I'm happy to have found you guys. Thank you all for filling my life with music and for giving me this chance to live my dream at last. It may not be the ultimate fantasy but I can already say that even if I were to die tomorrow, I will die without regrets.

潮落之後一定有潮起

Its funny how things work out and nice little surprises come along in our lives.

潮落之後一定有潮起

Always believed in this.. and it has happened, for the both of us :).

Today, I really felt happy for him. Happy not because of the result but of what he learnt in order to get there. Of how he has changed his perception of things and his outlook of life.

We each have our own dream and our own passion. I'm glad we are living it now.

Just remember, that results only come by when you are not aiming for it. Its always the process that counts. Enjoy the process and you will reap results.

I'm not an expert, I'm learning as well. I just want to be happy, walking my own road just as I want you to be happy walking yours.

Steamboat, Mahjong and a runny nose

Met up with my colleagues who left the comapny after we completed that big show.

Sure miss them.... and over dinner, as we poured over that steaming pot of soup and digging into the food, I wished that the time spent with them was not just over dinner but they could be back with us at work... and we could be slogging like mad together again, over some exciting or lousy event.

It made me recall all the events we went through together, so much so that I wasn't really concentrating on the food. Either the food was very little, or we ate really fast.. because the dinner seemed pretty short to me and I felt dismayed to have it end so soon, after not meeting them all for so long.

They wanted to adjourn to J's house for mahjong. I'm not really a mahjong player, never wanted to gamble in my life. But because I wanted to spend more time with them, I went along despite my nose running and feeling pretty cold.

Reach J's house and her gf wasn't around (well, if her gf was around, we wouldn't have stayed for so long). So we began our mahjong. I wasn't supposed to play! but they only had 3 of them... so i obliged... and of course, with me not really knowing how to count points and with them treating mahjong like the most serious game ever, playing at top speed, needing the most strict criteria to win, of course I didn't know how to win.. coz my usually ways of winning just didn't pass their criteria. So being confused, I just went through round by round by round, waiting for things to end.

It wasn't about the game really, it wasn't abt how much I was losing. I wasn't really playing, I was just spending that time there with them.

Whatever they were explaining to me about the point system, I couldn't really understand because I was distracted by my runny nose and my sorethroat.

I wish they would come back to the company. All 3 of them.. but then I myself am thinking of leaving hahah.. so how could I even expect them to come back.

Anyway, they better come up with new activites other than mahjong, otherwise I will die from trying to spend more time with them... from my already very poor pocket =P. Next time, they should just oblige with me wanting to go karaoke =D

How much is too much?

Guess it all boils down to how much I can juggle at one time.

The usual case of me wanting to do alot of things at one time.. but then again, if opportunities come by, how can I let them pass me by?

The 4 things that matter most in my life right now..

1) My work
2) School
3) My band
4) All those I care for

I just gotta juggle them well and be careful not to drop any..

17 Sept 2005

It seemed like any other Saturday just a month ago, other than the fact that it also happens to be my brother's birthday.

First, let me say sorry to him first. Da Niu, sorry.. I didn't get you any present haha. But I really wanted to send you curry twisties. Too bad da sao said you just got sick from eating too much of it. So no present for you :P

Next year, I will think of something good! hehe

I will remember 17 Sept 2005.. simply because of 2 very significant events that happened in my life.

We did our first gig and following that, the mafia finally got reunited once again after so so many months of uncertainty and guessing.

I suppose, this is what true friendship is. It is able to withstand the test of time and any obstacles along the way. Although it took some time, at least we have all put that all behind now. Yesterday seemed just as before =)

That big round table is now filled again, by a bunch of siao char bors + 1 siao ta por. The chilli crab eating, beer drinking, laughter filled table is back.

And so are the peanuts and chilli of course ;)

May we have more peanut and chilli times to come!

we lived a dream

yes, it happened yesterday.

Although I'm only blogging after I read hx's blog, but you know, I feel the same too. Now, perspective has changed.

When I was down there, looking up at others playing, how I wish we could have our turn up there as well. We had that chance yesterday, and although it felt a little awkward, like we didn't really know what to do, I know we gave the best that we had.

There were mistakes, but its inevitable. To me, it was already excellent :)

I'm proud of you guys.

Just remember....
If we didn't bravely accept this challenge, we would all still be happily sitting down while jamming, our song would have been sitting in some dark corner waiting for us to arrange it properly.

And one thing I realised yesterday. I feel more for our own song, than doing covers.

Lets walk on bravely and believe that we can do it better and better and better.

One thing though, lets change our band name hahahha...

Allow me to talk to myself

I'm sorry, Jess, I actually forgot about your death anniversary.

But then again, I'll rather just wash away the memories of your last few days.

All I want to remember is your birthday, the first time I brought you home and all the happiness you brought to me after that :)



Its not your most flattering photo, or your cutest one. But its you as I like, even though you couldn't see or move as fast as you could anymore.

Someone asked me why I keep the photo of you in my wallet, when you are not around anymore.

Its precisely because you are no longer with me, that I have to just keep you close to me always.

Miss you.

Be happy :)

On the opposite side of the glass

You know how things look different when you stand at different positions?

Its kinda weird alternating perspectives now that I've seen the other side.

Day 2-4

haha.. this is lazy blogging, but also because I've been quite tired out the last 3 days.

Can tell he's getting more tired as well, because his performance in the last 2 days, wasn't like before. Especially that night at the pub.. superb show. And he sang my favourite song too, surprise surprise :) (sh knows what that song is haha)

Still gotta say I'm so impressed by his guitar skills. Can't figure out his technique coz he changes it all the time. And all so easily... as easily as he sings, and reaches for the high notes as well. If only he can teach me how to play the guitar like that haha.. ya, like real =P

It finally all ended today. Got pissed off by someone who tried to act important and bossy, as though she's my boss. But then.. she does it all the time to everybody else.

Anyway, thats not the point of my blogging. Just wanted to say that.. the 4 days that went by, was really an eye opener. And because it is my production, I felt the need for everything to go right. Even crossing my fingers that his performance each time would fulfil everyone's expectations.

Met some people I would never meet if it weren't for this production. And it was fun, definitely. How I wish I had more productions like that.

Felt kinda sad that this had to end.. and I had to go back to handle other shitty productions. But oh well.. till the next fun and cool one. (I'll be waiting!)

This sat, there'll be a dumb one coming up, but at least the part i'm handling, still pretty interesting to me haha.

For now, its to make use of my leave (although not much left of it after i have to attend so many meetings at the end of the week...), to do my stupid degree work. sheesh... I need more time!

Day 1

Its been a really interesting day.

In a way, its my first true production.. one where reponsibilities lie heavily on my shoulders. And its nothing like the others I've assisted in before.

But its ok! I have everything planned out.. got things in my list all done.
hmm.. but this morning, suddenly realised I had no soundguy for one of the venues. Panic! Started sms-ing alot of pple non stop at 9plus. Then decided to postpone the soundcheck first, just to be safe while I'm searching for a soundguy.

You must be thinking, why don't I do the sound myself? Well, i can't coz I got to be running around making sure every area is going right.

Finally, the venue manages to help us provide their own soundguy. Phew.. but by then, I had already lost my handphone pouch while in my fluster going to work. Probably dropped it on the mrt... ... kinda miss it now, coz i got it when i first got my phone. Its like Tom without Jerry or Peter without Pan.. hmmm... haha nope that didn't sound very right, but yep, I've got a pouchless phone now.

One event passed and so far so good, no big screw up altho its not the most happening of events. But hard to be, since he's not really mainstream or some big name. It was still nice to see that he really had supporters, true supporters of good music.

He's an interesting guy too :), so friendly. Makes me wonder now if people with different inclinations, tend to be friendlier...

Oh yeah, he does the longest soundchecks ever too.. totally enjoying himself. Simply impressed by his guitar skills and voice. If only I could play half as well haha...

What can I say.. he's just a true blue musician, who feels his music, who lets others feel his music. Feeling deeply for something.. maybe that's what its all about.

I've gotta learn that too.