Da Niu has gone back to the land of the cows

It didn't feel as though he had been back for so long, but i was glad i was jobless at some time during that period, to be able to have had more time to interact with him.

as he walked past the immigration and waved goodbye to us, my aunt, uncle and his friends, I didn't feel a sadness. it was as though he was going out and he'll be back again eventually, like he does when he goes out every other day.

but the realisation dawned on me, as i was in the shower just now. weird place you must think... to suddenly miss my brother. but its the bathroom that he always nags at me about.. not to make the floor all wet or leave my clothes inside, or that i shower with water that is too hot, steaming up all the mirrors. i realised, that the bathroom was all mine to use once again, that i didn't have to share it or wait for him to finish using it on sundays when we prepared to go to church. but it wasn't a realisation of 'yay, i get a bathroom all to myself!'... it wasn't.

pep will definitey be scratching on his door thinking that he's hiding inside as usual. i know she'll miss him as well.

how can i not miss a brother who is always so caring and full of silliness?

2008.. he says he'll be back only then.

but right now, i feel happy too for him because in a while he'll be able to meet da niu sao again, after 2 long months apart. my sweet bro has prepared so many surprises for her =). Just hope they'll be happy there, all else doesn't really matter. after a while, i'll just have to get used to quiet nights again.